Heaven Is in My Heart
It's raining, and I have cried many tears again. I know it's silly to feel sad when the weather is such, but I can't help but feel a little depressed when there's a storm. Most unfortunate events happen during such instances and I must confess, some of my nightmares happened at such occasions.
It's comforting to know that in spite of this, God's love keeps me secure. I have much to be grateful for.
Last night was one of those days when the weather and what I was feeling was cooperating... I mean the tears kept falling and the cold weather was not helping me feel better. I am afraid of being left alone for prolonged periods of time. Depression usually sets in on those times and things I have forgotten have a tendency to suddenly resurface and leave a horrible feeling inside. This happens very rarely and the nightmares have been very few and far between now.
I remember when I was a child, my mother would instantly know that something is wrong and something very unusual happened during the day when I have nightmares. She would then scold my brothers and ask them what they did to me when they were out that would make me scream and cry out in tears during the night.
Usually a game of boxing with my two older brothers would naturally leave me with a nasty blow in the head, or arms...or whereever I am hit.
I don't recall details (thank God!) but there were other things that have happened that had given me a reason to scream and cry at night (when everyone is asleep and I can't seem to forget what has happened to me).
A few years ago, I attended the Ancient Path Sessions in Bacolod. It is a Family Ministry seminar workshop that helps one remember things in the past they may have forgotten, to help in the healing process. It usually unlocks barriers to wholeness and healing and helps people move on by forgiving people who have hurt or continue to hurt you.
It's a really helpful experience for me to be able to identify the root cause of my hurts and understand myself better. I now know that I react in certain ways because of the pattern of thoughts and emotions that I have used to cope with stress, fear, and issues of abandonment.
Understanding the past truly helps us with future decisions. It's one way to avoid making the same mistakes again.
My friend, who is a photographer is very creative in expressing himself. He has now managed to communicate via pictures and "words of wisdom."
It's a great pleasure to be able to say things without actually talking and writing. It makes one think of saying I love you and want to be with you forever in poetry and natures natural wonders! God's love is written in creation, signed by the rainbow we see after the rain!
Say it with flowers...=)
It's comforting to know that in spite of this, God's love keeps me secure. I have much to be grateful for.
Last night was one of those days when the weather and what I was feeling was cooperating... I mean the tears kept falling and the cold weather was not helping me feel better. I am afraid of being left alone for prolonged periods of time. Depression usually sets in on those times and things I have forgotten have a tendency to suddenly resurface and leave a horrible feeling inside. This happens very rarely and the nightmares have been very few and far between now.
I remember when I was a child, my mother would instantly know that something is wrong and something very unusual happened during the day when I have nightmares. She would then scold my brothers and ask them what they did to me when they were out that would make me scream and cry out in tears during the night.
Usually a game of boxing with my two older brothers would naturally leave me with a nasty blow in the head, or arms...or whereever I am hit.
I don't recall details (thank God!) but there were other things that have happened that had given me a reason to scream and cry at night (when everyone is asleep and I can't seem to forget what has happened to me).
A few years ago, I attended the Ancient Path Sessions in Bacolod. It is a Family Ministry seminar workshop that helps one remember things in the past they may have forgotten, to help in the healing process. It usually unlocks barriers to wholeness and healing and helps people move on by forgiving people who have hurt or continue to hurt you.
It's a really helpful experience for me to be able to identify the root cause of my hurts and understand myself better. I now know that I react in certain ways because of the pattern of thoughts and emotions that I have used to cope with stress, fear, and issues of abandonment.
Understanding the past truly helps us with future decisions. It's one way to avoid making the same mistakes again.
My friend, who is a photographer is very creative in expressing himself. He has now managed to communicate via pictures and "words of wisdom."
It's a great pleasure to be able to say things without actually talking and writing. It makes one think of saying I love you and want to be with you forever in poetry and natures natural wonders! God's love is written in creation, signed by the rainbow we see after the rain!
Say it with flowers...=)
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