Mothering
Ma'am Bing and I talked about our children, fanning their dreams, and allowing them to be what they want to be. I'd love to have pursued my own dreams myself, but circumstances and wrong choices forced me to make other choices for the greater good of my two loving children - Natasha Andrea and Ulrick Anthony.
I have had to make a lot of sacrifices to be able to keep the family together. Their father wanted to separate them. One for me, one for him. I made sure I kept both children. I told him that he can go on with his life and I will make sure that the children were well taken care of and I will never bother him again. I filed their delayed registration of birth without their father's acknowledgment at the back. It was simpler that way. I can make decisions for them, without having to consult with the father.
Don't get me wrong. Their father was a good and loving man. Only that the responsibility was just too much for him to handle. I had no choice in the matter. The kids needed food and shelter and so much more. I had to juggle three jobs to make ends meet. After the initial violent encounter, I had to make a choice fast. To leave or accept that the children will be next...
It was hard, believe me, on my own I could not have left. He was all to me. I loved this man with all of me, more than myself, more than God. That's when the Lord Jesus found me. I had been a Christian since I was 10 years old. But I was too naive and gullible. Escaping from one situation to another is not a solution to life's problems. By God's grace, I was able to leave the relationship and make life a better place for my children...
Now, I face another turning point in my life. I would rather see them happy and successful than even dare to dream for myself. But who knows? The Lord is good. Perhaps this time, I can dream dreams and have the courage to give it birth?!
I have had to make a lot of sacrifices to be able to keep the family together. Their father wanted to separate them. One for me, one for him. I made sure I kept both children. I told him that he can go on with his life and I will make sure that the children were well taken care of and I will never bother him again. I filed their delayed registration of birth without their father's acknowledgment at the back. It was simpler that way. I can make decisions for them, without having to consult with the father.
Don't get me wrong. Their father was a good and loving man. Only that the responsibility was just too much for him to handle. I had no choice in the matter. The kids needed food and shelter and so much more. I had to juggle three jobs to make ends meet. After the initial violent encounter, I had to make a choice fast. To leave or accept that the children will be next...
It was hard, believe me, on my own I could not have left. He was all to me. I loved this man with all of me, more than myself, more than God. That's when the Lord Jesus found me. I had been a Christian since I was 10 years old. But I was too naive and gullible. Escaping from one situation to another is not a solution to life's problems. By God's grace, I was able to leave the relationship and make life a better place for my children...
Now, I face another turning point in my life. I would rather see them happy and successful than even dare to dream for myself. But who knows? The Lord is good. Perhaps this time, I can dream dreams and have the courage to give it birth?!
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