Lovelife, Lablife
My sister in law is encouraging me to have a lovelife. In response, I told her I am always in love! Technically speaking though, I remain unattached, not by mere circumstance, but more because of choice. As the song goes: "When I fall in love, it will be forever, or I'll never fall in love..." Unfortunately, I thought I had been in love before, only to wake up and find the infatuation a pain rather than a joy to cherish.
If I could love the way God loves, I'd probably be settled by now. However, volatile and passionate as I am, I usually rush off, cutting the relationship or simply running away for fear that the closeness will bring me more harm than good. Besides, I've had my share of selfish men who wanted nothing but to please themselves.
I'm still waiting for my Prince Charming to come and free me from the tower of achievements and people pleasing. Until now, I still fall into the trap of performance and accomplishments to make my parents proud of me. It gets tiring and quite lonely, most of the time.
My only consolation is it is still my choice afterall... Ultimately, I would still love to settle down, have a place of our own and have children. That would be a lovely thing.
If I could love the way God loves, I'd probably be settled by now. However, volatile and passionate as I am, I usually rush off, cutting the relationship or simply running away for fear that the closeness will bring me more harm than good. Besides, I've had my share of selfish men who wanted nothing but to please themselves.
I'm still waiting for my Prince Charming to come and free me from the tower of achievements and people pleasing. Until now, I still fall into the trap of performance and accomplishments to make my parents proud of me. It gets tiring and quite lonely, most of the time.
My only consolation is it is still my choice afterall... Ultimately, I would still love to settle down, have a place of our own and have children. That would be a lovely thing.
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